i need helps
I’ve been holding this feeling for so long, keep telling myself everything gonna be okay, keep telling myself one day I finally get out of that life that I just live because I need to. I just want everyone, every human in my life just to be okay, meanwhile, those feelings eat me up inside, I'm in pain, the pain gets worst every time I feel I’m not okay. The cry getting louder every time I cry, the feeling getting explode sometimes and I can't control, my kids saw me sometimes and they get scared, I’m not hurting anyone but I start trow things, smashing things, the last things I do before I get out of that house, I took a long knife and stab it on the bed over and over again. I’m so sorry my baby, I didn't want you to see any of that, but you feel pain, and ibu can't control that. The stress that ibu had was so much pain and if ibu could, ibu just want to stab my own heart so I could take away that pain. Sorry if ibu forget that all of you are around me and you get scare